Depression

[Zapkin]

Well, as someone who has been dealing with this struggle my whole life, I thought getting a bike would solve it. I dedicated myself to living frugally for seven months, making payments towards it on layaway. I even had to make the tough decision to almost quit smoking weed (a significant sacrifice for someone like me) to afford it. Eventually, I got the bike, made some modifications, but now, I find myself afraid of it. Every time I hop on the bike, I feel like I'm living on borrowed time. It's crazy, I know you guys probably don't want to hear this, but it's the reality of my situation. I'm scared of a bike that can only reach a speed of 66 mph. I don't know, guys. I thought the bike would fix everything, but nothing has really changed, and now I'm just terrified of it. I suppose I'll have to sell it and accept my unfortunate circumstances in life.

This life is so difficult. I really hoped that a little adrenaline would solve it. Anyway, thanks guys. I am going to step out now.